當時是我第一次畫人體畫, 所以畫得很辛苦, 挫折感也很深. 我想要畫得更好, 但因為感到心有餘而力不足, 於是耐心耗盡, 最後也就草草了事 (兩年前跟現在比的話, 我以前的確比較沒有耐心)!
有時我也想給自己多一點鼓勵和信心, 告訴自己以當時的能力, 能畫出這樣的作品就該開心滿足了, 何必對自己那麼嚴苛呢? 慢慢來就好, 凡事都需要時間來學習嘛~
我想這是我腦裡"天使"的聲音, 只不過, 我腦中的天使常常休假, 常跑不見"使"影......
這時候, 腦中的小惡魔又跑出來搗亂啦! 不停地懷疑自己和打擊自己細薄的信心, 總覺得自己到不了想達到的境界...小惡魔的聲音愈來愈強壯, 天使的假期就愈來愈長.
不過, 別擔心. "保持樂觀"很重要, 我不可能讓自己一直沉浸在負面的情緒裡. 小惡魔和天使還是偶爾會換班. 現在, 即使天使想休假, 我這做主管的還是會不給休的!
總之, 又說了一些跟畫作無關的事...... 反而這幅畫也沒啥好說的 XD, 只能說我當時盡力了, 希望你會喜歡囉~
I finished this piece in Jan. 20, 2011. It took about six hours.
It was my first nude painting. It was very challenging and the frustration was very deep as well. I wanted to paint better, however, "the spirit is willing but the flesh is weak". I felt helpless. In the end, my patience ran out and I finished it carelessly (I have more patience now...I think).
Sometimes, I want to give myself a little more encouragement and confidence, and to tell myself that this painting is good enough, with my ability back then, I should be happy and satisfied already!
"Why being so harsh on yourself? Take it easy, because we all need the time to learn everything." This would be the 'angel' voice in my head. Unfortunately, she goes on vacation quite often and she can be hard to find.
While she is away, the little devil in my head would come out and rock the boat. The little devil makes me constantly doubt myself; she tries to crack down my thin confidence and play with my sad little weak mind. It can be difficult at times and I would feel that I could never reach to where I want to be…
As the voice of little devil grows stronger, the voice of angel grows weaker!
However, there is no need to worry. I know the importance of “staying positive”. There is no way that I would let myself soak in negativities for too long. The angel and the little devil are still changing shifts from time to time. Now, the angel’s vacations are a lot less compare to few years ago.
Anyway, back to the painting. Well, there isn’t much to say about it. I did my best. I hope you will like it. The end.